I took a break from blogging because it was too stressful on my life. I knew I wouldn't stay away too long --it was only about a week.
I think I need to take another break from blogging, but this time it's due to my inability to express myself in a kind way.
I've always had strong opinions about things. Those who know me personally understand that sometimes I speak before I think. I like to think that I've gotten better at it over the years, but it seems that I'm getting worse. This could be blamed upon genetics (I come from a long line of opinionated women), or hormones, or even personality. But those are just excuses.
The sad part, though, is that I've started writing my comments and opinions only after very careful thought. Sometimes I will mull over an opinion for hours before I write it and post it (comments and posts). But it's not making any difference. If anything, I'm creating more trouble.
I'm only left with the thought that my words are too strong. Or perhaps they really are too self-righteous. (Anonymous is probably thrilled, now.) I try to stand for what is right and true. I don't pussyfoot around. I don't sugarcoat anything. I guess that's the problem.
So, I've decided I need to just leave commenting alone for a while. I'll still post things, because I know my family likes to read about what I've been doing; my mom likes to see picture updates. :) But if I don't comment on your personal or community site for a while, you'll know why.
Some will take this as a cop-out. That I'm a coward. Others will think "Good! She's shutting up!" Even others may see this as rude --"She won't comment on my site, why should I comment on hers?" But even more people (the ones that know me) will think "Oh, geeze. She always does this. Gets offended and freaks out. I wish she'd just chill." (don't think I don't know what you truly think of me. One strength of mine is sensing exactly what a person is feeling and I'm rarely wrong.)
Yeah, maybe they're all right. But I'm thinking that nobody will miss my comments when they're gone. That is the catch about blogging. It's easy to be lost in the anonymous world, and nobody notices when you slowly vanish away. And that's what probably hurts the most.
Thank you to those that care what I think and know that I'm not trying to push my views on anyone. I really appreciate it; probably more than you will ever know.