I had the opportunity to squeal like a little girl on Friday.
Here's the scenario:
Brandon and me, driving along beautiful winding roads throughout southeastern Pennsylvania. Hills and farms, old churches and colonial homes are on every corner! We pass a hill and voila! Instant gorgeous properties with history and charm, all rolled up on a vista belonging in a painting. Brandon was laughing at me because I was giddy. Giddy! Complete with the clapping of hands!
Dear reader, I have a love for the color green.
And old colonial homes (think Regency England, too).
And the country and forests.
And Autumn is my favorite, favorite season.
I never knew --not once --in my dreams, that Pennsylvania was where I was meant to be. For years I have dreamt of England, or some amazing countryside I only see in novels and movies. I have pined for rolling hills with horses and sheep, farms separated by vast forests and streams.
I honestly did not know I would live there one day. Nor that it was to be found 30 miles west of Philadelphia! (Honestly, why didn't anyone tell me!?)
Heavenly Father has an amazing way in answering the prayers and dreams of our hearts. He is constantly surprising me with His goodness and His love. Things don't always work out for me the way I want, dear reader. Quite often, I have been told "no." I have been told "no" about a lot of things in my life. I've been reminded (by prophets, scriptures, family, church leaders, the Holy Ghost) that it's because He was waiting to bless me with something better, something more attainable, something more worthy of my dreams. But it was hard to believe because I was in the middle of it all, and I couldn't imagine something else.
But in a month we are moving to a house (just a rental for now) that is the beginning of those dreams come TRUE!
We had one day (Friday) to find a home. Our incredible realtor took us around all day, helping us search for our ideal location. And we found it, dear reader, we found it!
This colonial home sits on almost a full acre and backs up to a horse farm. There are fireplaces (wood!) and a screened porch, trees to climb, and a beautiful kitchen. There are five bedrooms and three bathrooms, and a garage! It's 20 minutes to Brandon's job, 25 minutes to our ward chapel, 30 minutes to the airport, 8 minutes to Costco, and 10 minutes to both the middle school and elementary school --which, by the way, are very highly rated! Our neighbors have children. There are Christian churches on every corner. It looks and feels like we live in the country, but we really don't.
(Photos courtesy of Google Maps. You can't see much because of the trees, but you get the gist!)
My Father-in-law was here tonight and we spoke very briefly about the excitement of finding this house. What he said to me, hit me hard: Everything is falling into place in this move. He's right, you know! We've sold our van. I've been able to sell household items and purge really well. We found the house in one day. Brandon's job is outstanding. We get to hire movers. Ward members and friends and family have been supportive in helping us move (watching kids, helping me clean, etc.). The only big hurdle left is to sell our house. And honestly? I'm not worried about it tonight. I'm feeling peaceful. It will sell, our house, and maybe not tomorrow, and maybe not before we move, but it will sell. All will be okay.
I bore my testimony today about how Heavenly Father guides us and loves us and answers our prayers in His time and in His way. I testified how almost 12 years ago, we were guided to buy our home, even though it was considered "too big" for our tiny family. We had one small baby! But now we have filled it to capacity! We have added five more children, and we are again being guided by Heavenly Father to move our brood to Pennsylvania.
Another quick story: Brandon has been approached by some companies here and there in his career, but this is the first time when a company has asked him to apply when I felt such immediate peace. Back in July when the process was starting, I truly knew that this was the right thing for us to do. I didn't know I knew it, but hindsight shows me that I did (does that make sense?). But it goes back even further! I knew change was coming nearly a year ago. I felt it. I felt the shifting of the winds (the sails, what-have-you), but I just didn't know what it would be... I feel Heavenly Father was preparing my heart and mind for what was coming.
And so, throughout this whole process, I have known it was right. Even when the stress piles high, even when Brandon and I argue about the way to transport all of us and our household items across the country, even when I know that the adjustment when I get there might be rough for me and the kids, even when the realization that things will not be easy hits me, even when I will miss the mountains --through it all, I know it is the right thing to do.
I love Heavenly Father. I love His love. I'm grateful for it. He helps dreams come true! Especially the ones we didn't even realize we wanted.
(Psssst! My next dream includes losing 60 pounds (seriously, it's a dream, don't judge) and to have another baby. I mean, if I can get Pennsylvania, why not that, too?)