#3: Totally committed to our family's life-long learning, both spiritually and temporally
#8: Ever trying to improve
#9: Never satisfied with mediocrity
They are very similar to each other, eh?
I realized the other day that I really am not satisfied with mediocrity, and I usually am trying to improve. Then my awesome SIL sent me this article (seriously, if you have the time, go read it!). In light of how my husband views me, the article fit. But not just in health ways --I think I'm always trying to improve in everything.
Don't get me wrong --I fail a lot. A LOT. Scripture reading? Fail. Clean house? Fail. Written novel? Fail. But I usually don't give up. I keep pushing because I know it's what I need to do. I want to have an ever-increasing testimony of the Gospel. I want to have a healthy family. I want to be emotionally healthy. I want to be a better mom, a better wife, and a better friend.
Everything I'm trying to do, or not do, or add, or take away in my life is simply focused upon the desire to be better. Not better than you. Not better than so-and-so down the street. Not better than anyone. Just better than I am right now. I want to be the best I can be in order to bless the lives of those around me --and myself. Boy-howdy, do I want to be blessed by it!
Is that wrong? Is it wrong to want to be better? Is it wrong to keep trying? I think not. I think that's the whole point.
2 Ne. 28: 30
I'm sure there are those out there who think I'm strange --that I don't just throw my hands up in the air and scream "I can't do this! It's not worth it! I'm done!" I know I've been judged based on my busy-ness, my number of children, my obedience to Prophet's counsel, my change in diet, etc. But I don't think I could ever stop trying. I can't give up. At the very center of my core, I know the reason for my existence. It will be slow-going, it will take time, and I will keep failing, but --but! --at least I'm trying. You know? I'm trying.
For behold, thus saith the Lord God: I will give unto the children of men line upon line, precept upon precept, here a little and there a little; and blessed are those who hearken unto my precepts, and lend an ear unto my counsel, for they shall learn wisdom; for unto him that receiveth I will give more; and from them that shall say, We have enough, from them shall be taken away even that which they have.
President Gordon B. Hinckley, quoted by Sister Julie B. Beck:
We have a greater challenge than we realize. . . . ‘Do the best you can.’ But I want to emphasize that it be the very best. . . . We are capable of doing so much better. . . We must get on our knees and plead with the Lord for help and strength and direction. We must then stand on our feet and move forward.
P.S. I love you, Brandon! I can't wait to see you tonight!