Thursday, December 17, 2009

Hands Down

It is 11:08PM, the kids are asleep, the husband is in San Francisco.

The cat did NOT bring in any more mice today, the dishes are not done, the laundry is not folded, the basement is not clean, and there is not a babysitter scheduled tomorrow morning so I can go volunteer in #1's classroom like I promised I would.

We do not have a job offer (yet), we do not know all of our holiday plans, I did not exercise today like planned, and I did not buy the children shoes, even though they all have holes in them.

I did not make dinner for the kids (we ate muffins and make-your-own sandwiches), I have not finished wrapping Christmas gifts, I do not know how much longer I can survive on such little sleep, and I cannot find motivation to clean the shower.

I still do not have enough compassion, and I still do not have enough time. For anything.

But I do know that every time I look at my crazy kids, I'm overwhelmed with love for them. Last night, they watched Voltron with Brandon on his laptop (Note to Parents: Old school cartoons are the BEST and children prefer them to the crazy-social/political-agenda-filled stuff they are force-fed now-a-days), and tonight we snuggled together and read some Dr. Seuss. I allowed myself to see the scene as an outsider; I observed my children individually and collectively, and what I found was that I am the luckiest woman alive.

Hands down.

9 comments:

Jill said...

Beautiful!

Gio, Judi and Boys said...

yes you are!

Julie said...

Such a beautiful post. It's those moments that really matter.

Amanda D said...

Great post.
I give you permission to ignore the shower. It's good for a couple more days. :)

Cardalls said...

i hate cleaning the shower...leave it and enjoy your kids! The dishes, basement and such will always be there but moments with your kids will not! :)

flip flop mama said...

Awww

TaLaisa said...

I'm so touched by this beautiful post. Thanks for sharing your wise thoughts.

Grandma Rozla said...

Don't you know it. I'm so grateful that you had that very special tender mercy. I love them! Hug your babies for me too!

Janelle said...

This is my favorite post this month. I was feeling anxious for me and you (my house, life is in a similar condition) but you made me feel a lot better.