Monday, July 20, 2009

Happy, Pappy

It's been an emotionally draining day for me. But that's okay, because I thrive on my emotions. Or they control me somehow. Or I like them...or something.

It's funny, you know. Emotions. We're taught that we are to control our emotions, but at the same time, we shouldn't completely repress them. It's a constant battle, and if you throw in mental illness of any kind, it's almost impossible without outside help. But that's okay. And getting help is okay. In fact, at times it's an absolute must.

I'm going to remember this in the coming weeks. See, it's there, you know. In the back of my mind, lurking, waiting, and hoping I'll let it out. You know, that jerk we call Post Partum Depression.

I know it's real --I've had it three other times. It's getting worse with each kid, too --but not as bad as it could be. And in reality, I didn't get it with #2, which makes me feel better. In fact, the fear of PPD might make me suffer more than the PPD itself --who's to say? I'd take that over PPD any day, though.

But to keep us happy and give us some happiness and be all-happy and what-not, here are some good videos to make you the h-word. You know...happy. Because who couldn't need some happiness right about now? I know I would love some:

Can't embed it, so go HERE.


Cheryl said...

Hey, my computer is being insane --can you guys see these videos, or all they all blank to you, too?

Mother of the Wild Boys said...

The videos are working for more ways than one. Thank you.

Tammy said...

Struggling with depression can be hard and I am so happy to hear you say out loud it IS OK to get help. Not many people do. You're right...all we really need is love!!! Good luck with your journey!!! I'm right here next to you if you need to steady yourself!!!

Susan M said...

Awesome, thanks Cheryl.

tamrobot said...

Another thing to be happy about: They're releasing remastered CD versions all the Beatles albums. They're supposed to come out end of August!

Anonymous said...

I'm in no state of mind to be watching these videos today.

And I have full confidence in your postpartum happiness. :)

Cheryl said...

Hey, guys, I can't remember everything I put on here because I can't see the videos. Could you help me? I know most of them were:

Small and Simple
The Beatles
The link is to Journey
One is Elder Holland...

What's the other one?

Cardalls said...

Bryan Adams.

PPD..just the words make me want to crawl in a hole and cry. Had it with 2 out of 4...needed help, never got it wish I would have. Those are dark memories!

Anonymous said...

I love Adele.

I'm going to send you good post-partum karma.

Julie said...

Great videos. You know which one I especially appreciated, right? It's true. Love is really what it's all about.

Looking forward to see you on Thursday.

And I particularly love my word verification today: mipower. It's so close to My Power and Mind Power and those are good things...

Cheryl said...

Oh, yeah! All for Love! Duh...

And I shall take all the good karma I can take, mad. Thank you!

Dang. I wish you had gotten help, too. I hear ya...

Yay! You're coming!!

Watch them. You have no choice. You MUST. WATCH. THEM.

That is awesome!

You're welcome. :)

You're the best. I'll remember that!

I hoped so. ;)

mamma D said...

Hey, I dont know if you remember me or not but rozla said I should ask you about ppd because I just had a baby and I feel like im going crazy! I would love to know what you did and your experiences. Much love and congrats on your little one!

Cheryl said...

mamma D-

I just emailed you and left a comment on your blog --let me know if you don't get the email! :)

flp said...

You are really awesome! You are reaching out to so many with love and understanding by letting them know that they are not alone in their world as mothers, or singles, or those who need hope. I love the more popular music as well as the many wonderful ramblings. Then, I just kept clicking on the videos, which led me to the heart of the whole! Keep up all this good stuff for I am certain there are many who sense that they have a friend who understands their many feelings that they may not be able to share.....with anyone else. Thank you . Flp friend of Drs. ps. CONGRATS on new #5 !!!!!Coming soon! :)

Cheryl said...

Well, thanks for the compliments! I don't know who Drs. is --or I'm just having a brain freeze being all pregnant and what-not --but thanks for coming by! :)

Cheryl said...

A-ha! Brandon and I figured out who you were easily (when we started talking about it). I'm sorry I didn't realize it sooner. :)