So, we all know that last week (the weekend?) wasn't so hot around Happy Meets Crazy Land. However! This week has more than made up for it.
Our "school" is going fabulous: #3 learned how to measure, #2's reading has already drastically improved, #1 learned that she can use the words "bottom" or "rectum" instead of "private parts" when writing a theme on digestion, and #4 has learned to cut paper. We've been to the BYU's Museum of Art and Museum of Paleontology, the park, the library, and swam and hung out with cousins. We've gone grocery shopping, made grape-sicles, and I allowed the kids to create their own "carnival" in the backyard --you should see their booths and games!
And holy cow, it's only Thursday night. I seriously hope I can keep this pace up!
The best part, though, is how low the stress-level has been. We have had no major commitments, and so everything we've done we've done because we want to and not because we have to. Having a fairly empty calendar has it's perks, you know!
And now, for my next subject: My List.
I have been thinking about my list for a long time, and I actually said it out loud today. And it surprised me, because deep, deep down, I think I've always wanted to do these things. They just never seemed possible because I don't have those talents. I'm a musician. I'm a friend. That's all. I don't do much else. Just imagining myself in these scenarios ten years ago (even two?) was unthinkable! But now? I'm not sure. I can't tell if it's because I've aged (hooray for 30!) or if it's because I'm braver or more humble or more...whatever, but no matter the reason, I now see myself as having the ability to do them all. And I want them!
What I want:
*I want to be a gardener. I want to grow my own vegetables and feed my family from my garden. I want beautiful flowers and trees --not necessarily a perfectly manicured yard or landscaped garden --just a functional one that I can maintain.
*I want to learn how to do all the things I swore up and down for years that I would never want to learn how to do --I want to learn to quilt and sew and can food...I want to be "domestically independent!"
*I want to be brave enough to use a clothesline and create compost and plant an apple or apricot tree in the back yard.
*I want to write poetry under the apple or apricot tree in my backyard.
*I want to finally finish my novel. And then write another one.
*I want to be a Camping Family. I want to hike with my kids and camp for days at a time. I want to show them the breath-taking beauty of the Tetons from Table Rock and the crazy view from Mt. Timpanogos. I want them to love the sound of a crackling fire and the smell of morning dew from the inside of a tent. We've gone a couple of times, but I want to go more.
*I want to be healthy by eating those veggies and fruits from my yard and hiking and being outside --and I want this health for my children.
*But then, I want music and blogging and friends and TV and vacations and Italy and Thailand and the Theater...
Is it wrong to want so much? Especially knowing that it might take another 10 years to get what I want (including the fundage to do some of this stuff)? If you notice, I didn't say "be debt free" or "have financial freedom" because to me, this is obvious --I won't get the things I want above until I have some of that financial freedom. But that doesn't stop me from making the small choices now to get me the big ones later, eh?
What is on your list? What do you want that you have never thought you could have or do? Long-term, I mean? Or within a few years?