Monday, November 26, 2007

I'll post pictures later...

Could somebody please come clean my house? I have to decorate for Christmas tonight. And I. Can't. Wait! But the house must be clean first. And did I mention that we just got home from our Thanksgiving broo-hah-hah yesterday? Could there be any more to clean?

Oh, and there are ants in the bathroom.

Could somebody please come and convince me to cry? I got the rejection letter from the publisher over the weekend. I was expecting it, but there was truly some hope inside of me. But I haven't cried about it yet. Perhaps I'm in denial? It can't be "Oh, well, I'll try somebody else" because I haven't thought about that. And now NaNoWriMo is suffering, due to the holiday and now lack of motivation. How can one rejection letter cause such carnage? Family members tell me to self-publish. I just can't do that yet. I need to exhaust all avenues, and having had only one shut to me, I'm thinking there have to be more somewhere.

I'll find them. Eventually.

Could somebody please help me be a better friend? I didn't mean to ignore requests of seeing people over the weekend; I just didn't have time. I also tend to ignore emails for days and weeks, because I prefer to blog instead of respond. It's not intentional. I'm just flaky.

Which is weird. I was never flaky until I had children.

Could somebody please remind me of the good time I had this week? I saw my parents, my brother (who finally showed me pictures of his girlfriend), my sister (her husband and my adorable nephews!!), my cousin, and my "aunt" (who always has the best unsolicited advice!). We also spent time in Provo, going to the BYU game (COUGARS WON!! Take THAT, Utah!), and visiting with Brandon's dad. It was a good week. But I still feel let down. Why is that?

Perhaps it's because our renters have their stuff in my house and it looks strange. Perhaps it's because I never get any time to really visit with my family and see my hometown. Maybe it's because I would have loved to have seen friends (mentioned above) in Blackfoot and Provo. And maybe it's because I come home and there is unpacking and cleaning to do. So much cleaning. Before we can put up Christmas.

And did I mention that I love Christmas?


Ethan said...

So sorry to hear about the rejection from the publisher. Don't give up though!

Good luck on the Christmas decorations. Truth be told, I'm kind of excited for the Christmas season to be here. Just remember what we are celebrating at Christmas and put decorating in perspective...I find it to be less stressful that way.

Summer said...

No matter how you prepare for it, rejection is hard. Keep trying!

Janelle said...

When is unsolicited advise ever good?

I can cry in nano seconds so if you need to cry, I'm your gal.

Kelly A. said...

Aw man, the rejection is no fun. Wallow in it for a little while.

Yea for Christmas to give you something to look forward to.

brenbot said...

bummer news.

i know this is quote is kind of cheesy but it helped me deal with a situation once and i think you like the sounds of music:

"when the Lord closes a door, somewhere He opens a window"

Jamie J said...

Sorry about the rejection! It will happen!

I have been feeling a little neglected lately :).

Hope you can get your house cleaned and your decorations up! I love Christmas too! (Oh and I bought the Josh Groban CD yesterday online. It should be here in a couple days, I'm so excited!

Cristy said...

Aw, Cheryl. I can always rely on your blog for a little reality. I get so tired of the blogs that are like "all is perfect. We are perfect. My kids? Perfect!" Coming home from a great week with my family, I totally lost it in the car and was the Grumpiest Mother/Wife imaginable. Why? The world may never know!

Amanda said...

I'm sorry, Cheryl! It will happen though. I have no doubt.

I am glad to hear that you had fun in Idaho/Utah though. Wasn't that game great?!

I am in the same boat as you...gotta stop blogging long enough to clean so I can get DH to get the Christmas decorations out. I did get the fall stuff put away yesterday though!

Cheryl said...

You guys are the best. I knew I could count on the blogging buddies to boost my spirits! Oh, and some sleep... :)