It's amazing how I am completely affected by others' reactions, perceptions, and treatment of me.
Everyone wants to have approval. I'm sure of this, because we live in a world of HUMANS. However, we don't need everyone's approval. Just some. And hopefully, from those that we love and respect.
I'm trying not to let it rule my life. I'm trying to stop myself from crying and eating lots of comfort food when I have lost someone's respect. Golly, even when I've lost a sliver of approval, really. I'm trying not to let it get me down, but it sure is hard to see yourself as a disappointment to somebody. The crazy part is, I may not have disappointed anyone. I may still have their respect. But when I feel that maybe I have lost it, there go the symptoms of clinical depression again.
~sigh~ Could you please pass the bag of chips?