Friday, March 14, 2014
Focus on the Good!
Things I'm loving right now:
*Sleeping Beauty herbal tea (from a tea shop in NYC) and honey from Utah! (Both given as a gift from Tamara, our Wharton friend, when she came to visit us. Thank you, Tamara!!)
*Austenland, the movie. It always makes me laugh out loud!
*Typing this while the cat sleeps in my lap and the 2 year old plays matching games next to me.
*Long, hot showers.
*Reading Pride and Prejudice again (it's been too long since I've read it).
*Gospel conversations with my daughters that rival ones I've had with adults.
*Having a printer! (It just took us three months before we hooked one up...)
*Playing the piano again. I've been trying to play something every day, and recently I'm enjoying Schumann, Brahms, Chopin, and Schubert. Obviously, I've got a thing for the Romantic period (no surprise there...)
*My meds! My asthma meds (which gives me the ability to exercise) and my brain meds (which gives me the ability to be happy and productive again).
*Watching my 2 year old do wonderfully smart things. Yesterday, as I was reading in the library, he was taking books off the shelf and then re-stacking them in various ways. He did this continuously for nearly 30 minutes.
*The new Facebook page Mormon Women Stand. Definition of those who choose to like this page: "LDS Women who, without hesitation, sustain the Lord's Prophet, the Family Proclamation as doctrine, and our divine role as covenant women for Christ."
*Clean fireplaces (I always feel like Cinderella when I clean them out.)
*Gratitude in my heart. I've been feeling very grateful, lately, and as I explained to my therapist last night, my life is good. Very good. I have an abundance of blessings that overwhelms me!
(And it's another validation that my depression is chemical and not due to circumstances. In fact, this reality --that my life is good, my brain is just broken --is actually very relieving to me. For a long time, I felt that somehow I was missing something or should have been doing something different, when the reality was that I just need to be on top of my brain chemistry.)
I was raised by wonderful parents and I have wonderful siblings. I have the gospel in my life! I have a college degree, a faithful and loving husband, many healthy children, a home (safety, warmth, luxuries of first-world living), the ability to be a SAHM due to my husband's hard work, talents that bring me joy, wonderful friends, and even though I may struggle with my asthma, depression, and weight, I'm actually really healthy (low blood pressure, good eyesight, good digestion, etc.). And now I have medication that lets me move through the cobwebs and out into the open where I can recognize all of this goodness. Where I can climb out of the darkness of the well, again.
I am blessed. I am grateful. I am overwhelmed with God's goodness towards me!
What are you grateful for? What is making you happy right now? What are you loving today? Please share them with me!