Thursday, May 19, 2011

You People Seem To Like the Random Much Better than the Soul Bearing Confessions

Rain, rain, go away, except that I actually like you, so I'm not too upset by it all. In fact, knowing that all the rain will make my grass greener and fill the reservoirs, I'm pretty grateful the water is still around. Doesn't help the cabin fever, though...

In two weeks I will be going to Hawaii with my main squeeze. This is a celebration trip for graduation, one that we've been planning for a year now. We'll be on Kauai most of the trip, but for part of the time we'll be in on Oahu. Kauai is our favorite island --it's truly paradise! Fewer people, fewer tourists, and more wilderness. My kind of place! I'm grateful to my parents for putting us up in their condo and for all the air miles Brandon earned so we can take this trip.

Haley should win American Idol. I hope she does. Lauren is still too weird on stage --"weird" as in, "nervous as heck." Scotty is a great Randy Travis/Josh Turner, but I don't think he's as good as Haley. It was obvious the producers thought so, too, last night. I mean, what was up with the wind machine? Too funny!

I've been thinking about shutting the blog down, which is not news. I think about doing that every other week. I probably won't. But it's become obvious to me that it is becoming fodder for my Depression and, quite frankly, people are sick of my negativity. Bearing my soul to the world doesn't seem to be helping people anymore. Did it ever? People claimed it did. But you know, when I think about it hard enough, it does help me. Which is why I started it in the first place.

Here's an unfinished poem I wrote the other day. Don't copy it as your own or you will burn in heck forever. Because that's what happens to cheaters and plagiarizers!

lately, lying on growing leaves
and staring into cloudless blue
it seems much easier,
breathes more clearer,
takes my soul and climbs far higher
without the weight of two times two.

The house has descended into one of Dante's levels of hell. Cleaning is now a mission of extreme hazard, which is why I keep avoiding it. I mean, if I avoid it, it'll go away, right? Isn't that how avoidance works?

The kids get out of school next Friday! Holy cow! I gotta get crackin' on a summer plan.

While we were gone to PA, the babysitter had the unfortunate experience to discover that a pipe had frozen and burst in our basement. She discovered this when the kids turned on the outside hose (for the first time this season) and water started gushing into the downstairs bathroom. I felt so bad for her! But she was a trooper and got the towels and stuff washed up and got the carpets dry with a fan. The only bad part is that now we have a (more) damaged ceiling and a cracked pipe. As if this house wasn't already falling apart.

It's Thursday. I like Thursdays. I don't know why. I just do. I hope you have a great Thursday yourself!


Amanda D said...

Don't shut the blog down.
Have fun in Hawaii!
And..I wish avoiding housework would make it go away. I'd be in good shape if that was the case!

Christy said...

I agree...don't shut down. I love the random and i love the true blue you. Sometimes you put my feelings into words better than i can put my feelings down - which in the end - helps me to understand why i am feeling the way i feel sometimes. I just don't comment - because i am lame like that :)

Totally jealous of your Hawaii trip - i have the traveling bug right now and reading that you are going to Hawaii made it worse :) ha!

Love you!

Julie said...

I like all of you, Cheryl, and hope, sincerely, that you don't measure your worth in blog comments. You are much too wonderful for that.

PS, I love Kauai, too. It is gorgeous.

FluffyChicky said...

Oooh...I really want to go to Hawaii! I hope you have a great time!

And don't you dare shut your blog down! Don't. you. dare.

Radel said...

My two cents: don't stop writing for us!!!! I love reading what you write. Especially about depression, you put my feelings into words. Maybe you are going through a rough patch right now, but we like hearing all of it, the good and the bad, that is real life!

Biological Fantasyland said...

I hope you guys have the greatest vacation ever in Hawaii, you totally deserve it.

On a totally different subject, I was rcommended this book by a man who works for LDS social services as a counselor and it changed my life. Maybe you have read it alreay but here it is anyway. Feeling Good, The New Mood Therapy Drug Free Treatment for Depresion. By Dvid D. Burns, M.D. It really made a huge difference in my life!


Handsfullmom said...

Hawaii? Sounds awesome! Enjoy it.

flip flop mama said...

Don't put your self confidence in how many comments you get! Have fun in Hawaii!

Mother of the Wild Boys said...

sometimes i don't comment because i feel that nothing i say can compliment the depth and sincerity of what you've written...please keep writing.