Monday, October 01, 2007

You know you're beyond tired when... accidentally set off the house alarm at 5:39AM, and instead of being calm because the children didn't wake up, you sob all the way to meet your running buddy. can't remember which side you nursed on, and so you nurse one side for three days in a row and wonder why the other side is so small.

...being woken up only at 11:55PM and 3:30AM consist of a "good night's sleep". forget to make your daughter's lunch until she asks for it on her way out the door. realize that your super-Saturday FHE lesson needs to be prepared by Friday, and you keep forgetting to get started on it. Again. are thrilled to hear that your Monday piano students are taking the month of October off. turn the calendar to October and you have to push down the waves of emotion bubbling up when you look at all the "Halloween" and "Harvest" activities your children are to participate in. forget to dress two of your children for the day. don't have the strength --of MIND --to comment on other blogs. And if you do, you sound like an idiot.

As if you couldn't tell, I'm tired today. #4 is just wearin' on me. And I have one more thing to say about that:
I am so, so, so sorry dear SIL (married to my brother) that I ever doubted your parenting. To have judged you so unwisely and harshly because your son wouldn't sleep through the night (until the last few weeks! Yahoo! Btw, he'll be 2 in December) was wrong and I apologize. I now understand, most sadly, what your were talking about. And although this child is my fourth, and we've tried the different methods, I am resigning myself to the fact that he may not sleep through the night until he is older. I hate it, but it is what it is and you give me hope (since it finally happened!). And although my writing career may suffer ("Honey, what's the word for the color of the sun?"), and my children may not recognize my face ("Mommy, what are those dark things under your eyes? And why are yelling about lint on the carpet?"), I know that one day --one beautiful day --or night --I will SLEEP again. Oh, yes. Yes, I will. And Angels will rejoice, and I will feel so...s..s.....z.zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz


kanga5 said...

You know I know where you're comming from. Seriously when my dear, loving DH says to me "I have GOT to go to bed." at 11:00 and I know I am NOT going to sleep anytime soon- I want to do and say mean things. But I don't. But I think them, and then I feel bad in the morning. Your post made me laugh and feel bad at the same time. I can relate to most of it. :)

Summer said...

I hope you get feeling rejuvenated soon. If I had suggestions for so doing I'd share them. But I don't.

Feener said...

found your blog and enjoying it. i too judged folks about the sleeping thing. my first was a GREAT sleeper, not a good napper thought. my second has not been the best sleeper and i haven't tried much b/c i am too nervous. i tell myself i will sleep again eventually. and now i start thinking of having a third ??

Rochelleht said...

Oh, that so sucks. I myself am tired today, but I have only myself to blame. Late girls' night.

Good luck. It will pass and be but a memory. In the meantime... Good luck.

Amanda said...

I'm so sorry that you are so tired! Put a movie in for the kiddies and snooze on the couch while they watch! Hope you feel better soon!

Katie said...

The first year of both of my children's lives is a blur. To tell you the truth, I know I woke up to feed my children at night, but I can't really tell you how I did it and when. It is a good thing they are still alive. Seriously. So, as you know with having older kids, it does pass eventually and the good news is your mind blacks it out! My thoughts are with you. :(

Cheryl said...

Oh, honey, I'm sure you are exhausted right now! I'll think of you when I'm up in the middle of the night, too, okay?

Is your baby girl sleeping through the night, yet?

Welcome! Glad you left a comment. Here's my advice: If you're already up with the second, what's another? :)

Jealous! I need a GNO...

That is actually a very good idea --something I've done in the past. I may need to revisit that strategy.

Isn't that the truth?! It's amazing how quickly I forget the earlier stages. I'm so focused on the "now" with each kid --which is important of course. I guess it goes along with the scripture about the woman forgetting her pains when she sees her child. It's totally true.

Cristy said...

Ahhaha.. I love the ending Cheryl!

Ah, such a good Mom! "Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming" (Finding Nemo) I promise that one of these days you will sleep again! Keep the hope alive!

Heather O. said...

What is this thing called sleep?