DH is a patient man.
He emailed me about a month ago with this information. In the email he said "not implying anything!" which was a smart thing to do at the time. But, of course, I needed it. I'm thinking I might call today.
I find that the feeling of hopelessness is making it hard to make friends with other mothers. Especially the other mothers of #1's friends at school that are not LDS. I'm sure they all think I'm either stuck-up or very shy. I wish they knew what I was really like; but they don't see my sparkling and witty personality when I'm dropping #1 off at school everyday. Of course, DH rarely sees that witty and sparkling personality anymore. It's still there, under the surface, and every once in a while, she shows herself. It's just not as often as we'd like.
So, to all those moms that think I'm not interested: You'd be surprised how greatly I would love having you for a friend. And I'm sorry that I'm not myself. Please don't think that I don't want to be a part of your circle. I just don't know how to get past the wall, yet. I'm getting there, though...