tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20526785.post798885094224728041..comments2023-09-05T23:24:27.006-06:00Comments on Happy meets Crazy: I Hate Mental Illness Cherylhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10218614720786379961noreply@blogger.comBlogger13125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20526785.post-89548582955998761992014-03-30T23:09:39.247-06:002014-03-30T23:09:39.247-06:00I randomly came to your blog tonight and scrolled ...I randomly came to your blog tonight and scrolled through a few posts. I had to stop and comment on this one. <br /><br />I'm glad you went out on a limb and posted this. This is exactly what I feel like all the time. I'm glad you were brave enough to post it because there are people who need to read this. I wish more people could understand that this is real and we can't just "buck up and be happy!" <br /><br />I hope you find medication and a therapist situation that works for you. I only tried medication and therapy once and it was a disaster. So I just deal with it. Not very well though. I too, would love to find just the right help. Maybe someday I'll get to experience happiness again. Hollyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17646095805699712232noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20526785.post-80896594387888105262014-02-12T18:53:22.348-07:002014-02-12T18:53:22.348-07:00Just wanted you to know that I love you! Lots!Just wanted you to know that I love you! Lots!Arlene Neilsonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08393771871849980735noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20526785.post-89566204828221567032014-02-07T15:58:27.832-07:002014-02-07T15:58:27.832-07:00I know this is a little late, but just wanted to s...I know this is a little late, but just wanted to send some love to you. Maybe you're feeling much better, but if not, just keep hanging in there. epugshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01222788889266521070noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20526785.post-52916835417650439462014-02-03T14:57:29.431-07:002014-02-03T14:57:29.431-07:00Working backwards:
Rebekah,
You are amazing and...Working backwards: <br /><br />Rebekah, <br />You are amazing and I've always admired you, ever since college and especially when I invited you into my home in CA. I agree that it's so freeing to know that I'm not the only crazy person out there going through all of this, you know? <br /><br />Catherine, <br />I desperately need to find the right meds for me, for sure! And the right kind of doctor. I have to admit that it's hard for me to see you as someone who suffers as I since you were so calm and put together. But then again, you take your meds! Ha! Maybe if I took mine... ;) <br /><br />Mia, <br />I think you are spot on. It's not silly at all and I agree --knowing the lowest of low, it's really wonderful to recognize when we have happiness. Even, like you said, just glimpses of it. Love you so much. <br /><br />Tammi, <br />I'm so glad you found me! Thank you so much for your words of comfort. I love your faith so much and it brought tears to my eyes when you were describing God as the rock when we're at rock bottom. He is! And I love Him with all of my heart. Thank you again for finding me and for commenting (and your comment on the misophonia post --I'll need to do an update on my son, soon. Thank you for asking!)<br /><br />Birrd, <br />I love you, too. <3<br /><br />Michelle, <br />Thank you. I know you understand these feelings more than you should have to, and I'm grateful for your friendship. Thank you for reminding me that I am more than my mental illness... it's so hard, you know? Love you. <br /><br />Stephanie, <br />Thank you <3<br /><br />Tangela, <br />I'm sorry you are struggling, too! Your comment brought tears to my eyes because I do know who you are and I appreciate that you would reach out to me. (((hugs))) to you! <br /><br />sariqd,<br />Thank you so much for saying that we are all working on the balancing. I think that's so true and I forget that just because I struggle with mental illness doesn't mean I wouldn't still have struggles if I didn't and all that crap. You know? I will let you know. You're the best. :) Cherylhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10218614720786379961noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20526785.post-61188773734810176142014-02-03T13:22:44.425-07:002014-02-03T13:22:44.425-07:00I feel like the older I get the harder it becomes....I feel like the older I get the harder it becomes. I have a diagnosis of pmdd and the truth is that it doesn't only effect me once a month. The older I get the more variable my cycles become and the more crazy I am at unpredictable times. I just got back from a family vacation where it is a miracle that I didn't alienate every person in our extended family and every person in my immediate family. It culminated with me crying hysterically in the parking lot of disney world, paralyzed by despair and alone in the happiest place on earth. it was totally rad. I want to do that again. Anyway. I am just telling you all of this because even though I have absolutely no idea how to deal with this reality in my life and it feels so illegitimate and embarrassing and scary so much of the time I reallly like knowing that there are people like me out there. I really liked you when we met. I mean really thought you were such a cool person. And I can imagine you freaking out and yelling and screaming and crying and saying horrible things at me and still sticking around because I like you. I have a few people in my life who stick around through it all and still love me but don't really understand. well I understand AND you can't get rid of your loyal blog follower. peace out. drop the mic.Rebekah V.https://www.blogger.com/profile/00333563680609145230noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20526785.post-58348782317079664172014-02-03T12:57:05.397-07:002014-02-03T12:57:05.397-07:00We had fun getting to know your family a little bi...We had fun getting to know your family a little bit this summer. I loved talking to you and just seeing the mother and person that you are. <br /><br />I have also often wondered is this me or the meds? Yet, just as someone with diabetes needs insulin to survive I need my medication to function. Just being suicidally depressed or way out there psychotic are not options I can live with. So I happily swallow my pills, grateful to have them. Me or not Me? At least it is the me I (and everyone else) can live with. <br /><br />I'm sorry you are struggling to find the right medication. That is really hard. Don't give up! Keep trying until you find what works for you.Katie Caballerohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00753890514599886370noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20526785.post-57236635371729316142014-02-02T23:14:39.391-07:002014-02-02T23:14:39.391-07:00This might sound silly and unhelpful but sometimes...This might sound silly and unhelpful but sometimes I feel like depression helps me feel joy and happiness in ways that other "normal" people can't feel. When I do feel peace, joy, and happiness after a dark spell or even for a brief moment amidst the darkness, it feels so wonderful. I feel so grateful for those often fleeting moments of bliss. I bask in it for as long as I can. There is "opposition in all things" for a reason. Because I feel depressed frequently, when I stumble upon happiness, I can feel all the depths and levels of it just as I have felt all the depths and levels of sadness. I'm sure you've had these thoughts before. Reach down deep and search for that small flicker of light to fuel you through this. Even the smallest of candles can help you see through the dark. Love you. Thinking of you... MamaMiahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00751558168576290607noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20526785.post-70642518837231187622014-02-02T19:34:33.419-07:002014-02-02T19:34:33.419-07:00Dear Cheryl, I happened to be searching for info o...Dear Cheryl, I happened to be searching for info on our son's situation (misophonia) and stumbled across your blog. I just wish I could write you. I believe that God directs our steps and for His purpose. I wish I could share our family story and also my complete understanding of what you're talking about and going through here on this blog and in your life right now. I totally understand. Please hang in there. And when you feel you are at "rock bottom" and no where to turn, just know that God, who IS our Rock, has got you...so even at "rock bottom" He's there!!!! How do I know? Because I've been there, several times. It took the sudden loss of my only sister (22 yrs old) in 1997 to learn about clinical depression. It's real and it really hurts! Hang in there...and just know that even though it seems like we are supposed to "walk in the light as He is in the light" there are times in our lives that are Very very dark...BUT God usually allows the curtain to be pulled over our eyes to heighten our sense of hearing...He's got a special message for you. "What I tell you in the darkness, THAT shout ye from the rooftops when you are in the light." (I just paraphrased that scripture) but it has meant a lot to me. When He allows us to go through the dark storms it is usually to give us a special lesson for us to share with someone else to help them. So keep hanging in there, and I will pray He will lead you to the best doctor soon!! <3 Sending hugs from your sister in Christ.<br />TammiTammihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11625966252985649159noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20526785.post-33192323292006805672014-02-02T10:23:12.734-07:002014-02-02T10:23:12.734-07:00I love you. I admire you. I am praying for you t...I love you. I admire you. I am praying for you to find a great doctor and a medication that helps you feel like yourself. Birrdhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06982501810291219741noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20526785.post-33003163609982125512014-02-02T01:08:28.121-07:002014-02-02T01:08:28.121-07:00I know words won't help, but I just want to sa...I know words won't help, but I just want to say them anyway. The REAL you transcends all of this, Cheryl. The real you is someone who is good and desires good and always has. <br /><br />I'm so sorry it's so hard. My therapist friend and I talk often about how sometimes we're just floored that God would send us here to experience these things. But the fact that you do experience them to me means you are mortal. The older I get, the more I realize how mortal we all really are. <br /><br />Sending love and prayers your way (and I'll add you to my fast).Michellehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08215431222961203620noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20526785.post-58044557756244338102014-02-01T23:41:15.975-07:002014-02-01T23:41:15.975-07:00I understand. I understand. Stephaniehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06086402548404014658noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20526785.post-41671652171762932822014-02-01T22:01:34.537-07:002014-02-01T22:01:34.537-07:00Hi Cheryl. We have never met, but you know my husb...Hi Cheryl. We have never met, but you know my husband from Blackfoot. Anyways I just wanted to send my love as crazy as this sounds I needed this post. Not that I love the fact you are in a dark place but that you're open about it. I have a mental illness too. Severe Anxiety Disorder. This post is a mirror of what I was thinking about tonight so thank you for being open and I will keep you in my prayers<br /><br />Tangela Jensenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04959683329293824614noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20526785.post-74646286768362179082014-02-01T21:48:29.990-07:002014-02-01T21:48:29.990-07:00We're all multi-faceted, right? So my thought ...We're all multi-faceted, right? So my thought is - meds do not make you a different person (and vice versa.) They just round out, push back, magnify different aspects. Finding the balance is pretty much a life-long endeavor for everybody, and you're doing the best you can. If anybody is being critical or telling you what you need to do, they just need to check the mote in their own eye first.<br /><br />♥ - Prayers going out for you and your family. If there's anything I can do, I hope you'll let me.sariqdhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16902376196124508459noreply@blogger.com